Cause for celebration

I Had my last injection last night!!!  Ya-hoo!!!  I have had almost 100 injections this year and that's not even counting blood draws.  Yikes! I can not even tell you how thrilled I am to be done with those things.   I have welts, bruises and giant knots on both sides of my rumpus and when searching for a "good spot", I found that there were none!  I also had adhesive spots all over the place from band-aides.  That was always fun to scrub off...

Did I mention how happy I am to have those behind me? 

As for me, I go in for yet another ultrasound this week and I am hoping for some good news.  I am still spotting and still on bed rest.  uuuggghhh... I do feel like it has slowed down which I am taking as a good sign.  On that note, I leave you with this funny...I'll update soon!

Happy New year!

We have had a fantastic Christmas and I've got a feeling 2011 will be great!  We had a pretty mellow New Years eve  and stayed home with the kiddos.  One of our boys was sick so we mad the best of it and had a little family game night. 

So now that I am recovered from the Holiday madness, we are moving right along on the surrogacy front.  I started injections Wednesday and you would think it would have been easy peasy.  Like riding a bike right? But sadly I had another freak out.  I got everything all set up and laid out for my Hubby to shoot me up and I kept procrastinating.  I did a face mask, cleaned up the bathroom, put some laundry away and so on and so on.  My Hubby finally at 10:30pm said "Are we gonna' do this or what? I'm  going to bed so it's now or you're on your own." 

So with much trepidation, I assume the position and I can not stop clenching my cheeks together.  So I shook it out and tried again.  Still super tense and had to walk away and shake it out.  uuuggghhh...I don't know what is wrong with me.  It is such a tiny needle and the first few don't even hurt that bad.  { I don't even want to think about when those knots start to form!}  So finally after the third time, I was able to relax and It barely hurt.  Man, I thought I was on the verge of a mini panic attack!  It was quite comical looking back but in the moment not so much. Wish me luck for tonight!

Here we go yo!

We got our calender!  Woot Woot!  Needless to say we are all thrilled and so ready.  Looks like we will be doing the transfer toward the end of January.  I got all my meds today and start those lovely injections at the end of the month.  It feels so good to have a date in the near future.  

It has been kinda' weird being in this limbo state that I have been in.  Back in March 2009 I go and tell my friends and family the news.  I address all of the questions, the surprised stares  and a wee bit of drama that goes along with it.  I was strong and determined though.  I knew I had the support of my peeps behind me and gosh darn-it, I am going to be a surrogate!  I thought whew, glad I got that outta the way.  Now when can we do this?  

{I am not always the most patient} I was ready to go.  

So here we are almost two years later {still ready to go} and I feel like the little boy who cried wolf.

"I'm gonna' be a surrogate!"

"Ya ya we heard you...we'll believe it when we see it."

I still get the occasional "So what's going on with the whole surrogacy thing?"  I find myself thinking, "Your guess is as good as mine!"  I don't get into detail with very many people because if there is one thing I have learned through this process it's that things change ALL the time. 

But...

Anyone who really knows me, knows I am a determined soul.  When I put my mind to something, I see it through.  I am seeing this one through.  I feel like it is my mission. 

I want to help someone else experience the same joy I get from my little ankle biters...That joy is like pure crack to me.  I can't get enough of it.  I love my kids more than anything. 

I want my IP's to get the happily ever after that they deserve.

So here we are.  I'm still here.  I'm almost there.  

I can't wait. I'm gonna' do this. I am so thrilled. =)

We've set a date!

Wow! What a whirlwind this has been lately. We've got the legal stuff out of the way and I have my calender with all of the important dates. So I began my injections and I should start by saying that I am truly a "sissy girl" as some would say. There is just something about sticking yourself with a needle that just doesn't feel right to me. I was willing my hand to do it, "Hand, put the needle through my skin." It wouldn't listen...I had to have my hubby do it for me. Meanwhile I held on, white knuckled, to the towel bar in the bathroom and thankfully, it wasn't so bad.

So, next on my calender, the final ultra sound to check out my "beautiful uterus". (I know what you're thinking, but I'm not the one who says I have a beautiful uterus it's my doc.) and then....
Finally, the big day! I can't stop staring at the bright yellow highlighted day with two little words written...EMBRYO TRANSFER. I'm so excited-nervous-anxious all at once. Only 2 weeks left! It has been such a long haul and I am looking forward to the next stage. Wish me luck!