Drumroll please...

Well, the results are in.  The nurse called this morning and said,  "Congratulations...you are VERY pregnant!"  

My BETA came back with a whopping 797!!!  All I can say is WOW!!!  

I think I am still in a bit of shock.   I am feeling a lot of things all at once.  On one hand I am really excited, happy and relieved that it worked, but on the other I am really anxious and nervous about the road ahead. I am still trying to wrap my head around it.  Nothing like hearing you are probably carrying 2-3 babies to wake you up in the morning right?  My hands were shaking and I felt like I was going to throw up.  Whether it was morning sickness or just plain shock, i don't know.  What I do know is that I am going to try and take this one step at a time and try, try, try to be patient until our first ultrasound.  By the way, we are scheduled to have that on Valentines day.  :)

My IP's are also feeling a bit shell shocked.  Here I am worried about how I am going to make it through the next 9 months, they have a lifetime to think about.   I'm sure that has gotta be a bit overwhelming...

So, I'm curious what other Surro Mammas came in on there first BETA.  I just want to see if there is any kind of rhyme or reason to the number or if everyone is different.  If you don't mind sharing, I would love to hear.  If you don't want to post it on my comments, you can email me too.  { h.grosser@sbcglobal.net }

Well that's all for now,  I've gotta go relax.  It's been a long morning.

I wasn't gonna' do this but...

Well, I was going to wait until I had my BETA on Saturday, but what can I say?  I'm feeling positive.  Excuse the pun.  Ha.I simply can't hold it in!  I did the old POAS test {well 4 actually} and each day my little pink line gets darker.  I am VERY optimistic that all of those sticky vibes worked.  Thanks y'all! 

So, not only are my lines getting darker, but all the symptoms are there too.  From the sore boobs to the nausea, I've got my bases covered.  I haven't felt this way since hmmm, last time I was pregnant!  Not to mention, I was in bed with lights out at 8:45 last night. That does not happen unless I am on my death bed.  

I will keep you posted on my progress Saturday, but I will be shocked if I don't have good news to report.  With that I bid you all a goodnight,  I am sooo ready to hit the hay as they say.  :)

The results are in...

Well I got the call yesterday and I am not pregnant. I'll start by saying I guess I am not that surprised because of the five embryos thawed on the last transfer, only one survived and it was a "C" quality. That was the one we implanted. I was really wishing and hoping for a miracle.

Now that this is done though, I have to say, I am bummed on so many levels. This is the end of my journey with these IP's. They only had 11 embryos to start and they are not going to go through the whole process again. Their attitude from the start was "Whatever is meant to be will be." I guess that is a good way to look at life. I have learned a lot from them and really grown close to them. I know certain people are put in our lives for a reason and I am thankful to have gone through this journey with them. They are wonderful parents already and hopefully I'll still get updates from time to time.

I will go for a "re-match" and post more on that journey to come. All I have to say is the next IP's have a tough act to follow. I hope we have a different outcome next time. What can I say...whatever is meant to be, will be.