Lucky 13

Well, we had our match meeting Friday and it went really well. Actually that is a bit of an understatement, it went fabulous! We ended up meeting the IP's in the lobby of the agency on our way up the elevator. We were all a bit nervous and chatty, but all smiles. At the agency, we had our little awkward talk about all of the lovely "what ifs" that may or may not happen. {I hoping for the may not!} So after we got all that out of the way {and with a huge sigh of relief that that part was behind us} we went to lunch. We really did have a great time together. My husband and I felt almost instantly connected. They are truly wonderful people. We are so excited to embark on this journey with them.

We flew there and back all in one day and let me tell you, that's exhausting! I slept like a lump on a log that night. So as a side note here, freaky thing happened on this Friday the 13th, our boarding pass was B 13, our lunch was $13.87. my change back was 13 cents, and the agency's office pad was on the 13th floor. Crazy right? I think 13 might have to be my new lucky number, especially with how well our day went!


So here's the next steps as of right now given we don't have any delays. This time around I will be going through a fresh cycle. They are finalizing everything with their egg donor and while they do that contracts are being drawn up. We will get the legal mumbo jumbo out of the way and then as I understand it, I will sync my cycle with the donor. {That means more injections...YIKES!} Once we are synced and she is ready to "donate" we will do the transfer. We are hoping to do the transfer no later than December, but wishing for October... You never know what could come up though so we'll see. Anyway that's that in a nutshell. I keep posting on this roller coaster as things start moving again...

Signed,
One excited, giddy, hopeful surro-mamma. =)

Count Down

Alrighty...the count down is on and I am officially getting pumped. We have set up or match meet. It was a bit tricky with scheduling, but we found a day and our tickets are booked. We only have 13 days left...I am sooo excited! Several people have told me that Friday the 13Th is a lucky day. I sure hope they are right! I can't wait to jump on to this roller coaster again. Did I mention that I'm excited? =)

hurry up and wait...

OK, bare with me for a moment, I am going to vent and get it off my chest. Hurry up and wait. I feel like that is the theme of this process. Fill this out, call this person back, go in for some blood work yadda yadda yadda and then wait and wait and wait. I so want to get things going and I'm sure it will pick up again soon, it's just that I am so excited to go our match meeting, unfortunately it's not until mid-August. uuuggghhh... the waiting! I think the anticipation is just too much for me. I am normally such a patient person, but I filled out my original application March of 2009!

Anyway, I guess it's not like I don't have anything to keep me busy with two little ankle-biters running around. I'll just enjoy the precious few weeks left of summer vacation and do our waiting by the pool having some fun...throw in a couple of umbrella drinks and hey, the waiting may even be tolerable. Thanks for letting me vent for a few...I feel better now. =)

They like me!

I feel like I'm 12 again. I have been anxiously awaiting the review of my profile and I finally got the news today that (and I quote) "They loved my profile". Yay!!! I told Jeremy (my very sweet hubby) that I kind of felt like I am starting all over at a new school....I'm walking in the door of the cafeteria, not knowing what to expect, holding my breath. when a nice girl motions for me to sit next to her....Whew...Anyway, when I sighed my deep sigh of relief my hubby said, "Of course they love you...what's not to love?" Awww, nothing like scoring a few points before the hormones start up again right? So, next comes the match meeting and I can't wait! I'm so excited to meet them! I'll let you know how it goes...

The other side...

I have delved into this world of surrogacy because I want to help another couple experience the same joy as I have with my kiddos. Aside from all the chaos,fights, and messes that go along with raising two boys, they are so sweet. They make me smile every day and I simply can not picture my world with out them. I have thought a lot about couples that can not conceive. I think I can imagine what it would be like to be in the IP's shoes, but fact is, I don't. How could I ever possibly?

I stumbled upon a blog today of an IP's journey into surrogacy from the parents perspective and it brought me to tears. The struggles and the ups and downs of the whole process were heart wrenching. This discovery has shed a new light on the whole subject for me. I have seen things a little differently and I hope it will help me remember why I started this journey in the first place...especially when I do become pregnant and start complaining about heartburn, and swollen feet. =)

I know it will prove to be a positive experience for me. Yes, I will feel really good inside and yadda yadda yadda, but nothing compares to how the parents of the child(ren) will feel when all is said and done. For the parents, this is a dream come true! I feel like I could take all of the excitement and happiness I experience through this process and double it (or maybe quadruple it!) and it still wouldn't hold a candle to what these parents would feel. I gotta say, from my side, it feels really good to know that I get to play a part in helping them to achieve that happiness...I can't wait!

Just a quick little update...

So I have officially given the go ahead on starting over. I just got re-approved for the insurance, did all of my labs again and freshened up my original application/profile. It's hard to believe I filled that out a year ago! I thought for sure it would all be over and done by now. Anyway, I am now working on finding that perfect match and I think we may have found them. I'll keep my fingers crossed that it will all work out just as it should. Let the whirlwind begin...again.

The results are in...

Well I got the call yesterday and I am not pregnant. I'll start by saying I guess I am not that surprised because of the five embryos thawed on the last transfer, only one survived and it was a "C" quality. That was the one we implanted. I was really wishing and hoping for a miracle.

Now that this is done though, I have to say, I am bummed on so many levels. This is the end of my journey with these IP's. They only had 11 embryos to start and they are not going to go through the whole process again. Their attitude from the start was "Whatever is meant to be will be." I guess that is a good way to look at life. I have learned a lot from them and really grown close to them. I know certain people are put in our lives for a reason and I am thankful to have gone through this journey with them. They are wonderful parents already and hopefully I'll still get updates from time to time.

I will go for a "re-match" and post more on that journey to come. All I have to say is the next IP's have a tough act to follow. I hope we have a different outcome next time. What can I say...whatever is meant to be, will be.